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Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Detoxification

Now it is time to cleanse all the bullshit that I've been hearing from so many people. I will only keep the good things that I got from them.

I will fight to the end all of the bullshit ideals that people try to instill within me. They will never turn me into the fakes and hypocrites that they are. Try to break down my walls, I will get right back up stronger than before.

I will never forget the good teachings that I have received, despite the bullshit that people have been trying to make me accept. Thank God I am still strong willed, even though I have been so close to giving in.

Monday, December 15, 2014

Help

I love to hear people out for their problems. Maybe give an advice or two if needed. It kills the loneliness and I forget my own problems.

I want to go out in the world and help the people in need. I can't bear living in my silent and lonely world any longer.

Help others who are truly in need, help yourself.

Note to Self

Never go for the goodbyes, especially if it's someone you deeply care for. Because now you know you can't handle saying goodbye.

Sometimes I wish I never opened up my heart to anyone. Either that or I better learn how to balance out my feelings and attachments. But how can I learn to balance it out if I don't get the chance to do so because that person is gone from my life forever. If that's the case, then I must never open up my heart to anyone ever again.

Every time I lose someone, it drives me crazy. When I do have someone, I go crazy as well, fearing that the same thing will happen again with that person. What is the best thing to do? Remove the attachment from your heart and rejoice if that which you have disengaged yourself from becomes yours. But don't fall for the trap by being too attached once again because of that.

I wish it was easy to love. How can other people do it so effortlessly and still have it? Maybe I don't deserve any form of relationship. Maybe I'm just not meant to love and be loved.

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Stupid People

I'm tired of dealing with fucking stupid people. I want to get rid of those idiots from my life. I can't believe how some people don't even have the most basic COMMON SENSE.

Monday, December 8, 2014

Growing Up

Learning is the hardest thing I have to do. Learning about life the hard way.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Thursday, December 4, 2014

Outside

I am not afraid to let myself open up to another person, despite my previous huge heartbreak. God only knows how much emotional pain I've been through. I guess I still have hope for love, no matter what happens.