Growing Fat And Unhappy

I'm not happy. I've been too busy. Even when I'm finally free, I'm too tired and not in the mood at all to go to the gym. I can feel the fats accumulating in my thighs and my arms slowly getting flabby again. I don't know why becoming fat makes me depressed, but it does affect me a considerable amount. These past few days I can admit that I've been feeling really demotivated to get up in the mornings and face the day. I guess exercising is really an integral part of me. Not only it helps me lose weight, but it helps to boost my mood. I really need to make time for my precious gym sessions. Screw what the other people will say about me, but I will clear up my schedule for gym. I need to feel uplifted again, no matter what those people will say to me. I can't go on living like this. I can feel my life slowly sliding out of control, and I'm not going to let it. From now on, weekday nights when I have no talks to attend to, I'll force it as my gym time. No more extra appointments. I'll not let anyone sway me and compromise my internal well being.

3D Album Artwork

I discovered this guy today, Tom Alex Buch. I think he has the most amazing job and his works are impressive too. He does 3D artwork for the music that he loves listening to. I'm currently following him at www.tomalexbuch.com and so can you. Check it out!

I guess my new goal is to create illustrative 3d graphics for the music that I love. If you think about it, that's my way of giving back to what has been keeping me afloat all my life - music. Lol. Well it's always been in my field of interest, music and awesome graphics. I would love to make a living out of this sometime in the future.

If You Have A Dream

Keep fighting for your dreams, because others, well a majority of them, will do anything to hold you back and bring you down. It's hard to find good, decent people, but when you do, hold on to them.

Those mean people are also my motivation to surpass myself at a greater pace. Because when I reach a level much higher than them, the satisfaction of their dumbstruck faces is priceless. Also I want to be one of those people who have worked hard, but still remain humble. I will not make fun of those below me and I will be their guide and protector against those people who think they can treat others like dirt just because they have better talents.

Keep fighting for your dreams!

Balancing Act

I love what I'm doing nowadays. Starting up a business for money and social skills purposes, and learning visual effects for my interest and hobby. Balancing those two important things in my life.

Election Day And My Birthday!

Rumors about this, rumors about that. I'm getting tired of rumors and how some people really believe in them. It's just like gossip. Completely bullshit until clearly proven true.

I'd just charge through situations no matter what people say. If the rumors are true, then I'll be the wizened fool who spreads the word of truth.

I'm tired of being a prisoner to the fear of rumors. I'd rather experience things firsthand even if it means learning some things the hard way, and be your enlightening messenger. Oh how I'd love to squash those rumors. Perhaps I should go into investigative journalism? Hahaha. Or maybe just a freelance blogger who's passionate about spreading the truth.

Incited

I'm actually honestly excited about life once again. Excited about meeting up with friends, making new friends and reconnecting with old ones.

It's that internal energy which I've been wanting for so long. Feels more wholesome. I'm going to make this last.

Exes

Hahaha my ex is such a loser! Now he's all trying to get back together with me. Isn't his supermodel girlfriend enough? Lol. What a loser.

Oh and last time, we were hanging out together and I spent about 200 for the food and drinks. After that, he's always postponing the next hang out, since it's his turn to foot the bill, always giving out excuses. And now that he's out of legit excuses, just now, he even had the gall to suggest a cheap ass place, which in total would be about 4 times less than what I paid for last time. He's such a freaking loser. A cheapskate. An ass who breaks his promises, in all aspects. Big time LOSER.

There's a reason why people break up. I'm glad I've cleansed out the losers in my life. It's just this one who's the last one to get rid of.

I feel sorry for his model girlfriend.