Who knows, maybe I will kill myself because of you. Because of love and pain. Because the feelings are real. To make u understand that my feelings of love are real and the pain is real. So real that I have to kill those feelings because I don't want to feel them anymore. I don't want to feel them because you don't have those feelings anymore.
This is the devil's next step planned for me. After he managed to tempt me into giving this relationship a chance, then give my life and self up to this very mentally unstable person. Now he wants me to kill myself.
Funny how I realize only when it is too late, but still feel overwhelmed.