so tonight was a pretty decent night. walking alone in the semi darkness, feeling the occasional cool wind, smoking.. alone with my thoughts. if only there was someone walking by my side. imagine how we would share the lovely night, keeping each other company. man, my thoughts kept going back to that random cute guy who talked to me. man, i wish i had his number. but it felt too awkward at that time. i wonder if we'll bump into each other again. not unless i'm like a stalker, waiting for him to come by the cafe. nevermind, i'll let it be. if it's meant to be. damn, i just want a convenient company, a convenient boyfriend. haha just kidding. it feels like it's been a while since i last felt like this. really lonely. ha. damnit, it's been a long long time since i last held the hands of a loved one.
damn, i need to stop f ing around and get back to work. i need to learn to lock away these lonely thoughts, and any other depressive thoughts.