i've gotten so used to the emptiness. any attempts to change that will be rejected.. i hate that. but that's how it is now.
when i was with a friend at his sister's place, it had such a homely vibe. a similar vibe that reminds me of what we used to have back then. something that's too good to be true. and yet, i reject that idea, the possibility of me ever going to have something like that in the future. i want it so bad, but i'm terrified of it happening. oh shut up whiny beotch.