Rejection

Been alone and rejected for relationships for so long, the pain is starting to feel good. It's like, I'm in the frame of mind where I'd rather revel in the hurt than pursue a possible relationship where I don't even know if that person likes me as much. Well I've just been rejected in a way by this guy that I like a lot. And I'm feeling like just basking in the pain than pursue him when he told me he's uncertain about us.