a moment ago i was so happy. funny how it can be ripped away and get replaced with huge remorse and depression.
regrets, wounds reopened and slashed with a blunt knife.
*take a deep breath*
i still can't write about that happy moment. f ing depression.
oh yeah. i'm really considering therapy. i've been trying to fix myself for years. it feels like there's this one huge barricade that's blocking me from moving forward. all i need is to just destroy that, and i can work on the rest myself. just need help for one obstacle. oh god, please help.