What Happens Now

When innocence is lost.. Slowly devoured by the realities of growing up.

just a feeling

feels like i can die from depression. heart beats very slow, and very hard. THUMP.............. THUMP...... it's like i can feel the life force slowly flowing out of me. just like, slow, slow death. feels like as if anytime i can drop dead from the lack of heartbeats, and the hard force of each slow beat.

i just need someone to talk to.

laugh, it'll do ya body good (present post)

i dunno, sometimes i feel like giving up. so f ing tired of always having to fight for something, not having things come easily.. fight, fight, fight. it's a never ending battle. it's f ing tiring, always having to fight to stay afloat. sometimes i feel like just letting go.

oh i saw this on MyYearbook. just can't stop laughing at it. ha ha. so f ing depressed one moment, and laughing like a maniac the next.

ripped away (present post)

a moment ago i was so happy. funny how it can be ripped away and get replaced with huge remorse and depression.

regrets, wounds reopened and slashed with a blunt knife.

*take a deep breath*

i still can't write about that happy moment. f ing depression.

oh yeah. i'm really considering therapy. i've been trying to fix myself for years. it feels like there's this one huge barricade that's blocking me from moving forward. all i need is to just destroy that, and i can work on the rest myself. just need help for one obstacle. oh god, please help.