I did something horrible. I am not going to confuse myself anymore so I'm going to stop it. No more. I am a confusing person, confused with myself as well.
Fucking hell. I wish he hadn't been too busy to spend time with me. I must learn to not be so clingy and needy. Sigh. I'm so confused. I don't want to hurt myself and not hurt others either, just because I'm too confused or erratic. I hate to be an unstable person. I must learn to be stable on my own. Sometimes it's hard though, when the people that I look for are too busy for me. So yeah I really must learn to spend time on my own and not jump off the wagon when nobody is around for me. It's so harmful.