I had been really really down and lost these past few months. And finally, something very traumatizing happened last night, to cap off that extremely painful journey that I had. I did all I could to not let myself fall in that crucial moment. However, I knew I would still have to face every second of every day that comes after that, and I was very fearful that I could easily slip away and fall really hard, judging by my past.
As I was going about my business in the morning, this phrase kept running through my head:
"Wadhdhuhaa. Wallayli idzaa sajaa"
I felt it was a weird thing that would suddenly interject my thoughts. I thought it had something to do with the morning, due to the translation of the word, which I remember. I wanted to know the rest of the surah though, but I couldn't remember so I looked it up.
What hit me, really hit me home. All perfect, and poetic. It was extremely beautiful.
In the name of Allah, Most Beneficent, Most Merciful.
I swear by the early hours of the day, and the night when it covers with darkness. Your Lord has not forsaken you, nor has He become displeased, and surely what comes after is better for you than that which has gone before. And soon will your Lord give you so that you shall be well pleased. Did He not find you an orphan and give you shelter? And find you lost (that is, unrecognized by men) and guide (them to you)? And find you in want and make you to be free from want? Therefore, for the orphan, do not oppress (him). And as for him who asks, do not chide (him). And as for the favor of your Lord, do announce (it).
I then knew this is His favor for me and I want to record this beautiful moment in writing. It's as close as I can get in reliving this perfect moment when I reread it. In a way, also announcing this good news, to anyone who might be reading.
He has been very merciful to me. He knew I couldn't handle the trauma by myself this time, after the pain that I went through before this. So He sent me good people and guidance when I needed them the most. I shall indeed pass the good vibes around. Positivity breeds positivity.